Nadiah Khairi

what's your definition

2012-02-13T01:31:00.002+08:00

kita selalu baca a real man would be a gentleman, would call you back if you hang up, would be this, would be that

Hakikatnya tidak

if we hang up, they will be pissed off and will not call us back

if we thought they would pay, they wouldn't because lets face it, they don't have money too

if we want them to call us up at 3am just to tell us that they love us, haha DREAM ON.. They're in the dream land themselves

if we are sulking, again, they would actually ignore us because its not worth it to 'pujuk' us after all

If we tell them we want something from them (not talking about materials only here), they will not give it to us

Lets face the reality, a real man is ignorant. that's what my male lecturer told me

He actually said : 'a real man is really ignorant. he is not a real man if he is not ignorant'

and hey, i think it made sense

Because take a look into your own life. your father, your brother, your uncle, your male friend

defition of a real man?

the one who appreciates you, loves you.. MAYBE

who am I to say anyway? HAHA

tapi come on, ada betulnya jugak kan?

sometimes, 'real man' ni pun tau marah, tau sakit hati but that doesn't make them any less of a man

in fact sebenarnya macam lagi manly je?

even if perangai dah follow the book sangat-sangat dah ni (romantic, gentleman, never let the girl pay, etc) tapi tak setia, mata keranjang, semua-semua tu, tak real man jugak kan?

just some thoughts I have before I go to sleep

shit that blows

2012-02-12T13:06:00.003+08:00

Let me tell you shit that blows

broken promises
false hopes
when you're hungry and there's no food
going back to university
sore legs due to wearing heels/uncomfortable shoes
when you are fat and ugly like me
When you are fighting with your loved ones

damn they suck

knackered

2012-02-12T00:21:00.002+08:00

It is 12.21 am
I am knackered

Should have gone to sleep but I'm writing this instead

I have tears in my eyes. because of yawning obviously, i'm sleepy

Go figure

Assalamualaikum

So, can you tell?

2012-02-01T21:39:00.001+08:00

Sudah februari kah? cepatnya..
I am not a fan of Februari simply because I experienced something I really can't forget in February
but whatever it is,
just be good to me

LMFAO

2012-01-31T20:39:00.002+08:00

I've realized that this space has been getting darker and darker with all the emo entries

I mean, my life isn't that emo :P

Its just that whenever I choose to write, it has got to do with something I loathe or I was just hurt or in a negative mood, etc

to cheer things up a bit :

Laughed my arse off

pernah tak

2012-01-30T17:27:00.002+08:00

Pernah tak rasa tak tahu samada sesuatu patut dibuat atau tidak?

Pernah tak rasa so helpless because you can't help yourself to figure it out

Pernah tak rasa takut untuk buat keputusan

Pernah tak rasa pasrah ialah jalan terbaik

Pernah tak rasa you just don't know what to do

pernah tak pernah tak pernah tak pernah tak pernah tak pernah tak?

ntah pape

2012-01-28T23:26:00.003+08:00

Flirting is fun

but please, not with someone else's boyfriend/girlfriend

Be considerate la

Even if you say main-main pun, but still,

Perasaan lagi sorang tu macam mana?

heh

Whatevs

too good to be true

2012-01-26T00:25:00.002+08:00

I am watching a hindi movie, Mann, as i'm writing this

Too good to be true lah

wujud ke lelaki macam ni?

Romantic, sweet, understanding, sanggup berkorban, blablabla

too good to be true

Lelaki-lelaki macam dalam Ombak Rindu, Nora Elena, Mann, and every other cliche in the book ni lah yg buat perempuan buat expectations

When in fact in real life? okay you answer that

I cannot watch all this sad, cliche love stories because no matter how hard I deny it (the fact that everything is just too good to be true, too good) but,

it still makes me smile and full of hope all over again

so sad, too sad :'(

small things

2012-01-19T13:17:00.002+08:00

We often neglect the small things over the big things

but how often do we actually cherish the small things?

Did you know small things make up for the big things?

Small things are really just small, but it will give you an impact.. for example,

small things like not wearing a comfortable pair of shoes.. the impact? you will have the time of your life walking with sore legs

small things like forgetting to switch off the iron, etc.. you get what I mean

why is it that we always, always ignore the small things when in fact,

it will affect us in a way that might kill our mood for the whole day

like not getting your favourite ice cream flavour because it went out of stock

I care about small things

and it kills me whenever some people just neglect these small things

ever heard of,

sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit?

yeah, ponder that..

Small things matters, just don't underestimate it

friendship, relationship, family, it work the same way

benda kecil tu macam takde apa-apa pun kan? tapi sebenarnya itulah yang buat sesuatu jadi indah atau buruk

diam

2012-01-18T22:35:00.002+08:00

The answer is crystal clear when the person being asked went on silence or could not answer the question

Ever heard of Silence is a girl's loudest cry?

Same goes to everything else

You don't have to answer it, I already know

time

2012-01-17T13:07:00.002+08:00

Honestly,

It has never been easy

this constant battle with my inner self, with my own feelings

this constant reminder that I am not good enough

It hurts

I do not need this shadow

it has been haunting, following me since the very beginning

Like a knife slitting my throat, slowly, full of pain

Time.. how much time do I need?

21, the legal age

2012-01-07T00:32:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah i'm 21 - 7 january 2012

umur legal, boleh vote, alhamdulillah

Ya Allah, kau jadikan aku manusia yang lebih baik dalam peningkatan usiaku Ya Allah

Kau berikan aku kebahagiaan dan kejayaan dalam hidupku Ya Allah

Kau jadikan aku manusia dan perempuan yang lebih tabah dalam menghadapi segala dugaan hidup Ya Allah

Jadikanlah aku manusia yg sentiasa bersyukur

Jadikan aku anak yang taat dalam peningkatan usiaku

Jadikan aku seorang kekasih yang melembutkan hati dan penyejuk mata dan hati buatnya

Berikan yang terbaik untuk diriku Ya Allah

Ameen..

alhamdulillah

I'm 21 now :)

Thanks to family, friends, and him :)

2012

2012-01-01T10:26:00.003+08:00

At this point of time, I really don't care about 2012

I had a shitty 2011

the first half of the year was bad for me

the second half of the year was at least better

and I have a bad start for 2012

So tell me how am I going to be excited for 2012?

because right now, I really am not looking forward to it

Right at the very second i'm writing this,

I only wish for happiness

I've been dealing with sorrows in 2011

and there's no stopping sign that I can see yet

just, be good to me 2012 please

that's all I need.

demam lah

2011-12-25T18:33:00.002+08:00

I'm having a fever
demmit a few more days to exam and i'm having a fever
dah la i haven't studied a thing
I AM SO DEAD

I am vulnerable when I'm sick
all I want is tender loving care
but didn't get any (yeah, story of my life)

so now with the heaviest and pounding head,
I will continue life like a normal healthy human being, although i'm not
I. is. sad. very. sad.

:'(

bila nak berubah?

2011-12-22T14:53:00.003+08:00

i'm here again

I'd like to rant about my upcoming final exams

I have approximately a week to study and get ready for my finals but tak study ape pun lagi

I know this is like a freaking disease

dah nak exam time tu lah malas menjadi-jadi

bila nak berubah?